Sep 2, 2010 10:34PM
Second week of school and I have moodswings kicking in... It is so unlike me but still... its PMS symptoms but I never have that..
Its just weird. one day I am happy, the rest of the week I try to ignore everyone, only touching on the surface if I see them.
I feel sorry to him because he got the full blast, he was even asking around for me and when I saw him I just ignored him.
I do kinda want these people out of my life at this current moment. I just need a break from them I guess.. this will be a long semester but yes, I want this to happen... I really want to get my car so I don't have to rely on these people. I can foresee that once I get my car, I will see them even less which is what I really want. I want to breakaway from this cycle.. I wanna meet new people and live life as it is ..
I told one of them to give me a break and I am glad he understands me..
But my parents are coming thus, I shall act nice and fun.
Maybemaybemaybe this is just all the pre-pmsing I am having.
BUT this current moment I want everyone that I am seeing everyday to be out of my life.
Jul 24, 2010 12:07AM
I feel like such a bitch.
I saw the eyes, I know the thoughts of others.
But I just continued what I've been doing, and so is he. We're both playing the game, and we both know; each filling up something that is missing from each of us. Let's see who will last. I am for sure not going to surrender, I've nothing to lose from this. He does.
On a happier note, I drove for an hour on the street today, all the way to downtown where my Uni is. We didn't even know we will get there, I still have a phobia for lots of cars! And Dar let me drove alone to Safeway to get disinfectant! Those asses are all trying to get me sick cause they all caught the flu virus. But no way jose!
Jul 11, 2010 4:14PM
As much as I was certain about what I am feeling, I am getting swayed.. Back and forth and back and forth.. These 2 weeks especially. We've doubled the closeness because we were required to, to lie to a senior. And after that, it just seemed that we couldn't break away from it. Just when I thought we broke away over the weekend, a 3 way H2H talk brought us all back into this game. Now, answers and conversations are running in my head. He would say yes if I asked, but its not what I want. I really don't want to lose focus on my studies and to be honest, I wouldn't want a cheater.
J
Jun 25, 2010 10:11PM
As I thought. My capricious character always sways me. But today I am a little more confident in what I am feeling. That everything I was feeling before was just a moment..because when I read the post I was ooh- and ahh-ing with blessing and sweetness felt for her on the other side.
I guess our status really rose. Rose to inseparable. But an inseparable family and friend that I truly love. A different kind of love. caring love.
A person I wanna know more about but with no other feelings than just the plain I care for you cause you're my family and friend.
Jun 19, 2010 6:11PM
I need my fair share of fun ..
You've had yours so zip it and see.
Twist thursdays!
BTW
I changed by tumblr link
impetuosity.tumblr.com
I think I will switch it up again.. I am pretty sick of it now.
Jun 9, 2010 2:32PM
:) 18. I am here. Embrace me well
Jun 7, 2010 5:02PM
I haven't been updating this space as much.. I tweet because of ang and mdl and tumblr because of random stuff i like.. but this space will forever be a personal space..
hahaha find me on twitter and tumblr!
http://twitter.com/JanMarguerite
http://impetuosity-whirl.tumblr.com/
Well so summer classses started..there are less people but the ongoing drama and problems still exists and now we bring it worldwide as everyone is overseas now! I just wanna share it with him but I can't because I promised to never tell. But the more I look at her, the more I detest the way she is leading him on. But a confrontation is completely unnecessary...! All I can say is..our small little family may be having an internal conflict soon............
Oh wells.. I won't let it ruin my mood again..some random pictures here and there....
Unnie's final day in AZ !
look at my mozart hair..haha super curly!
Kisses from vegas.
HAHA .. i miss my long hair.. i still haven't find a style in this short uglr hair -.- ahhhh
May 24, 2010 1:48AM
Caught Letters to Juliet today....it was great ;) I like it! But still...watching Amanda Seyfried and watching Mean Girls... I can't relate.
May 22, 2010 2:55PM
finally not that busy! Its summer now! I've been clearing stuff off my hands, and I can finally take a breather... alot of people are leaving for the summer so I am busy hosting farewells here and there! Summer classes are also starting in a week! AHHHHHHHH.. i am going to go crazy! :D
Will update!
